sams_pf
05-02-2009, 12:23 PM
I just need help through prayer. I am overwhelmed at the moment. I have decisions to make, issues to take care of, and so many emotions. This battle has been going on for months and has not let up. I know God is a promise keeper, and promises good for those that love him. I love Him with all my heart, He is the very best friend I'll ever have. Not saying I'm anywhere near the saint Job was, I'm nowhere near it, but I'm feeling alot like him. Part of me feels like He's telling me it's time to make a move. I need to know it's him telling me and not my emotions. My mom is the only reason I've stayed in Greeneville, cause I wanted my boys to have that love from a grandparent, since I never knew either of mine. Now that she's gone, I feel like I have nothing here. Satan has launched an attack on my family and as hard as I try to keep it together, it is falling apart. One son tells me the day after mom's funeral, he's moving in with my sister (in my mom's house). Another texted me that mom was the one that raised and disciplined him, as if I haven't done anything. Makes me wonder if anything I've done in the 16 and 18 years of being their mom ever counted. My dad lives in Ky and it's on my mind to go up there and help him. He was in the hospital with his heart while mom was in the hospital. My studies really suffered this semester, with them working me over time, when I'm supposed to be parttime, then being at work that hour when mom died really did something to me. I resent my job, that I'm not sure I have anymore. I haven't worked since the 7th, when mom died. My outragious house payment is behind. I just need to get it together but can't figured out where I left everything. I'd just appreciate the prayers. Thanks. Sam